#my Time

What is happening actually???
Today we went for nasi lemak...obviously with the same gang~
However, when we were there, I noticed that...there was only one chair~ which means they did not know that I'm going with him and their face expression do really tell me a lot about how they feel.
So yea~ kind of awkward...and I know what actually Alan thinking....
The way he spoke with me on the Facebook....kind of feeling loosing him as someone who can talk with.
I started to fear to speak something with him other than joking.
Am I doing something wrong or decision that I shouldn't?
I don't know...I really don't know...

and I felt so gloomy for my hole study week eventually I don't really study much but wasting time.
The most was on Wensy's case.
I don't really feel like putting a leg on it...since it's non of my business...
Why am I putting my leg inside...
Eventually, it is planned to call the so called fucking daddy to meet up with Wensy and talk about the baby. The worst part was, Esther straight away put my name in it and asked me to call him eventually I seem to be no right and no chance to say "NO".
What the hell~
I don't really feel like getting involve in it..Come on la~
Eventually you guys have the foundation of LAW but I'm not! I don't know anything about Law.
Don't waste my time please. Anything that I should help which above my limit, I have done my part. No extra hard work please, I 'm not the volunteer...I have my own life to go...I'm not either counselor or angel...What ever I should...I have go through and as promised...I had be that somebody.
So, please...just leave some time for me okay~
Please don't ask me out for the for goodness chit chat or what ever...I need to STUDY, ladies...
You guys are really great...you guys gain my mood and please leave the time for me as well...
Don't asked me to go for the so called study group or study guide or what ever which eventually I am there to waste my time in chit chat and seeing you guys dating...
DON'T WASTE MY TIME. =.=
Frankly speaking, you should know what's the consequence for being making love before marriage..so yea~ have a great day! I sick of it and tired.
You guys really made my day gloom eventually I don't know should I say no or buck up myself to help you.
AAAAAAAA~ what the hell~~~~
Great one~ =.=
Great job ladies~ I guess I should speak this infront of you guys eventually...
Why are you are the one who is pregnant??? OMG~ What am I doing??? My God!
Why should I cared about you guys feeling eventually mine should be the more important right?
I don't want~ I want mine to be more important.... :(
I don't give a shit la..... :( Why? WHy? WHY? Haiz..... :(