#I don't want

I had a really....night mare??
For me it is a night mare.
In that dream..
I saw the "me".
The "me" who is rebellious as when I was, during my secondary school.
Really rebellious and nasty.

and in that dream...
I quarreled with my grandmother.
Fight with my youngest brother even my eldest sister.
I do fight and quarreled with my Mumi as well....
Night mare~

because of what am I...
My Mumi give hope on me and doesn't want me any more...
Everyone give hope on me...
They don't want me anymore... :'(
Eventually...I'm not pretty sure whether am I screaming for the whole night but I hope I didn't.
Around 3 o'clock. I woke up from the dream with wet eyes.
I cried. :(
and I saw his message....I told him that I had a bad dream.
Honestly, if he reply me that time...I will really ask a hug from him.
Unfortunately,  he didn't until 7 something in the morning.

I cried until I fell asleep...I guess around 4 something cause I remembered I cried for quite a long time...and my eyes for today was like...golden fish--->swollen. *laugh*

Everyone can boycott me, can leave me, don't want me...but not my family....
please don't give hope on me.... :(
I don't want...
I don't want...
Don't leave me alone.... :(