#last drop

12.12.12
Shall I make a wish??
If I do, I wish I will be a better me~

Waiting for you is a hard chore;
Waiting for your message is like an idiot;
Care about everything that you have done was like an insane;

I don't know what do everything that you have done means to you, but it do means a lot to me.
but...I guess you found a better me~
If you don't care why should I care about it~
Why should I care about it that much~
I did try to find reason for you, but...it doesn't work at all...I was so struggle between it.
I did try to find excuses for you, but...rational told me that It is impossible~
It even came to a situation that~ I believed misunderstanding did occur~

I know you are not my stomach's worm but...I can't ask you either, because I really don't know...in your heart..what am I?
a good mate?
or..
your ms piggy?
eventually...you gave me a feeling that you are not my Mr piggy even though you said you wanna be my Mr piggy.
I found that, you don't even belong to me, not even partially or quarter.
I'm a noob when things come to me, I don't know what should I do.
Don't tend that I will know what the meaning behind.
I'm stupid~ I'm an idiot~

Somehow, I will think...are there all lies??
If there are...Don't comfort me with your lies, I don't need sympathy or empathy~
I rather you hurt me with the truth. At least I will just cry off like a baby and stand up as a better me for the next day.
Don't give me any hope or promises if you think that you are not able to finish it or made it done for me. I will believed in it~ I will let myself out from the box.
Eventually, I guess I was wrong~
I shouldn't let myself out from the box.
I shouldn't believed that in the dark, I'm able to find you standing beside me.
I shouldn't believed every single word that you told me.
I shouldn't believed that we will make something different.
I shouldn't believed that you will with me when I'm crying.
I shouldn't stop being a porcupine.
I 'm an idiot!
Why am I getting deeper and deeper?
Why am I hoping that you will be the someone who hold my hand?

There is no fairy tale~
This will be my last time~
tears being out from my eyes~
mood being ruined~
I want a sunny day not a gloomy day~
I know where should I stand....
Just hand everything to God~
Le it flow what ever it should~
*pat my heart* everything will going to be so fine...

#sad case~ 12.12.12 miracles which not belong to me~