I don't know why...I'm just feeling damn gloom right now.
I'm just feeling everything not coming that smooth as what I expected.
Even that darn printer are trying to bully me.
Moving and not moving. Like seriously and what the hell.
The saddest part was the promise that has been made.
I don't understand. What means by promise?
I know... when the time I decide to walk off from the circle. I guess the promise no longer belongs to me.
Why am I still eager to hold on to that promise that doesn't belong to me?
And who cares, even yourself not keen about it. Who am I be there to care about it.
Just forget about it then. That's how a promise would hurt someone.
Beside that, Don't know why...I felt myself no longer able to join their's world.
I'm kinda started to regret for moving over to this house.
At least when I was in Aunty Monica's house...I won't care much and that's only me and my room.
I won't care what my dinner gonna have, I won't care who is joining me for dinner nor lunch. I can just eat what ever I want even alone cooking for just only me.
Somehow, when I was here and I started to use to go lunch and dinner with them...It's silently became part of my life.
When out of sudden, it will made me feel much more lonely when their are not around just like today.
I really hate this feeling.
I hate peoples interrupting my life and made a full-stop when I used to it.
People has their own life to go. Go after a girl or may be out of sudden a girl go after one of your friend...
Anyhow, All is just my problems.
Eventually Friday night we are going to watch movie together, somehow...
*laugh. I don't know. "Are you okay with it? Let's see how?" *laugh. Can I just say not okay? What's the NO means??? Eventually you guys have decided how the plan goes. Why ask me? Just for the sick of asking?
This really made me feel like more dumb as usual. Why made this?
When you used to it, but out of sudden peoples tend to forget your available.
*laugh. I know right~ That's funny...
I'm a weirdo. I used to live alone all the way. Yeah~ That's the way I live for.
Friends....
I'm just too selfish. I'm really sorry about it.
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