SHit~

Countdown...
2 more days...will be my 21st birthday.
Time passed really fast, 20 years...I been living in this world for the past 21 years.

Today, when I was with Alan at the Econsave....
Out of sudden, Malissa called me and asked me out just for Cheah Yee Hong's Birthday celebration.
HaHa. It was a surprised, I guess it had been some time we didn't actually meet up or what ever is it.
Birthday celebration...don't know why...there was some blue feeling in me.
It's sounds like, same goes to today the photo session with my classmates.
I felt a bit sour actually...my birthday...I guess except Yvonne...who was the one who actually still remember my birthday...who else will be if theyre is no reminded or what ever.. hahaha

Even my dad and mum don't remember that and how sad case was...they are not going to celebrate my 21st birthday. hahaha.
My 21st birthday....I don't know why...I don't care about my others birthday...but it was my 21st birthday...hahaha...
Somehow, they did ask me whether wanna a birthday party or not. Supposingly, it is a yes...but later my mum suggest what about we go some steak house and celebrate...I'm actually just fine with it...
I know, it's a messed and troublesome if to held a party just to celebrate my birthday...Plus, they no longer as young as last time. I'm just all fine, even with a cake with my family..I guess it will be my last birthday with them. After those years, I will be all by myself...
However, plan changed...it been postponed till this coming December.
What's the point of celebrating? It's sounds like just a family gathering, there no longer a thing which worth to celebrate. hahaha
I'm just feeling....haiz...
Is okay~ it been damn years that they did not celebrate with me...Sometimes, they don;t even remember my birthday. It should be all fine. What's the big deal.....

Feeling better right now...just forget about everything. Don't even think of it...just make it like last time....who cares about your birthday. Not like peoples must remember your birthday...Joke right? hahaha

Really can't imagine that i'm 21 years old and will be officially upgrade as an adult.
Kinda unwillingly, hahaha...I guess it's good that no one remember your birthday...at least you are forever young. LOL.

21st birthday...What am I suppose to make this memorable?? Present myself a watch? a phone? or a camera? hahahahahaha...sounds like I really need to work hard though. They ain't cheap stuff. LOL
My 21st birthday...LOL.

Beside this, don't know why...today was the first day that I don't feel like going for dodgeball training.
May be, it's really happen a lot of things until it ruined my mood for attending.
Interpreting. I am hoping, really hoping that the feeling that I owed wasn't right.
I really don't hope that Chong Inn is that kind of backstabbing person.
We have been a while. May be I don't know everything about him, but at least I knew him and he is the one that I can consider as a close friend.
Will he be the second fella just like Peter?
I'm crossing my fingers and hoping for it. I told myself he ain't that bad and he is not that kind of person.
I'm just wished to have fun. That's all what I want from the club, from the training.
Is that...that hard???
Sometimes, I do feel like asking the God, why is He taking away all my close friends and turned them into a beast.
Why???
I don't understand...Really don't understand.
I'm laughing...I guess...