I'm BACK~

It has been the long lost since the last post.
Well, a new chapter of life has been started since last August.
Mission and vision has been created as usual. What left was the confidence in me.
Since I started taking IL, I realized, my English is bad. hahaha~ In term of writing, speaking, reading as well as listening. I poor in each and every section. This weakness had defeated my confident to the max. I no longer had the confidence to speak and write in public.
But let by gone be by gone.
Staying here for another year, let's create miracles.

#Hope for the BEST~

I am feeling guilty for not doing constantly in improving my English.

I am totally sucks out of it!!

Time passed really fast. *I hoped my grammar is correct*

A lot of things happen recently.

Finals, tests, retake, resit, etc..Most of it are making me worried.

I am going to retake my English test on this COMING FREAKING Thursday!!!

This is my third time taking this sort of test.

God bless.

I have no idea what to describe and how to describe.

I AM SUCKS!!

Perhaps, I shall admit that.

Was looking at Facebook, instagram etc..

I saw bunch of photos which made me envy.

Err~ may be...'envy' doesn't suit my mood currently.

I guess jealous will be the best word to describe.

Yea~ I'm jealous, in the sense where I couldn't travel anyway but have to spend my summer breaks with works.

What a hectic break~~

In my whole life, first time being that crazy??

I'm totally all out for MONEY!!

I am working for the WHOLE day!!

LOL~

I'm doing some sort of admin works, i guess~ pretty bored in the morning from 8.30am until 5.30pm.

Perhaps jam for two hours and continue my second part time as a waitress from 7.00pm till 10.00pm. in a restaurant.

Well~ first time being that tired.

It's killing me. Hahaha~

Anyway, is time for study. 

Good luck Sheryi~~ 

I am great, I know~ LOL~

MH370

Just read an article about MH370, the plane which gone missing for mostly 3 weeks ago.

I'm disappointed towards the way where our government in solving crisis. However, I'm much disappointed towards peoples who are scolding Malaysia and Malaysian.

Let's sit down and think about it.

It's undeniable where Malaysia government really make a mistake and showing dishonesty in solving this crisis. However, it is a need to involve all the Malaysian and judge Malaysia as a garbage country?

Surprisingly, I thought all these unnecessary acts shall and will only come out from peoples who are not educated. Well, I’m wrong. It does seem like even some unprofessional artists are from some uneducated background.

I’m a Malaysian and to be honest, I am embarrassing when our government shown dishonesty and incapable in solving crisis.

                                                           

However, Malaysia is a place where worth to be marked as one of the tourist spot. Think rationally and put away all the political issues. It’s undeniable where Malaysia is a beautiful country with multi-ethnic, multicultural, and multilingual society, and the many ethnic groups in Malaysia maintain separate cultural identities.

I felt embarrassing to be a Malaysian once, and now, I felt proud to be a Malaysian. For the least, I’m educated. I never blame Chinese from China for making some inhumanity fake stuff which ruined the health of the peoples. I know it’s from only part of them who are unethical and inhuman. For the least I’m rational.

In this case, with most of the China peoples who met the unfortunate, I’m really sorry about it. However, don’t forget, our Malaysian are there as well. The plane is not consisting the only China peoples. You can blame our government, but please, think rationally before you speak. Not all the Malaysian are bad and Malaysia is still the truly Asia. Please be much educated. Thank you. 

全新的“我” #the brand "new" of me

《我是歌手》这节目正是现在红翻整个中国，家喻户晓，人人口中的综艺节目。

而我，却也随着潮流慢慢开始关注这节目了。

何谓，人生有多少个十年，不趁现在，该等何时？

可能当下参选的歌手也因此而踏出他们勇敢的第一步。

佩服~

这开头好像有些不塔，但却是当下的心情。

喝~

好久都没书写心情了。

恰巧读上一篇文章，每一句话很令人认同，但却只有一句让我熟悉更让我三思。

那就是：

可以做朋友吗？是一段故事的开始。

还可以做朋友吗？是一段故事的结束。

很可悲的一段。

让我联想起，Inn。

如果你要我形容，他~

是一个不错的朋友。

豁达~可能因为家庭不错。

独立~还有进步的空间。

学问~他可是一位不赖的顾问。

性格~挺小孩，但不会是个缺点，因为他还挺是位大男人主义者。

双面人~说真的，为了生存，有哪个不是。

强者为胜，弱者为欺。

但是，不知为什么我没有选择他。

而且，如果可以我也不怎么会在Kelvin面前提起他。

可能他不会告诉我，我不喜欢可却感觉他真的不喜欢也不开心。

所以，我很少在他面前提起他更别说我对他的感想，书写就是我唯一的形容。

“还可以做朋友吗？是一段故事的结束。”

也因此，我们的故事结束了。

如果还算得上朋友，我们便是很普通，很普通，普通却带点可怜，就像那当时的起点。

有时，我会觉得。。是我做错了吗？

我不知道。其实。。。打从拿笔还清的数据，预感真的没错。我们的友谊已经回到当时平凡到不可再平凡的起点。

让我深知，“还可以做朋友吗？” ，是一个谎言。

更让我体会，情侣当不成，承若相等于谎言。

每当看到他抽烟，我非常的不舒服。

但我也只可以沉默。因为我什么都不是。

God, please protect him as I owed him. 

Save him from all the tension,all his stress. Blessed him with a good heath and a good future. Send him someone who really can help him in quitting his bad habit, smoking. 

I know he like sport, and he is stubborn. He used to say doctor is for the weak. Rest is for the weak. And he never admit that he need rest. Blessed him with a good health and healing opportunity so that he can continue playing sport. So that he continue in his favorite sport, Rudby. Thanks God.

这一辈子的我。。。太多遗憾了。。太多悔恨。。

非常恨自己做出不可弥补的决定。

就像旷课的理由。理由很结实，却很荒唐。

如果真的发生，我这一辈子都不会原谅自己。

把这谎言结束，是对自己最大的开始。

我答应， 下不为例。（发誓）

文章过后，就会是我的终点，更是我的起点。

加油。

Lord, in the silent of this new day, I ask you peace, wisdom and strength.

Today I want to look at the world with the eyes of Love.

Help me to be patient, understanding, humble, gentle and good.

Please let me see others as you see them, that I may look past appearances and appreciate the goodness in everyone.

Close my ears to all the gossips and save my tongue from speaking evil of others.

Please let only thoughts that bless remain in me.

Today I want to be well-intentioned and fair, that everybody who comes to me might feel your presence. 

Father, clothe me in you kindness, that thoughout this day, I might be a reflection of you. 

Amen.

A new start ahead. God bless everyone. 

my BIG day!!!

oh yeah~ 30th of September!
At last! My turn to turn into an adult. LOL

To be honest, is kinda sad though.
I wished I could just stay forever 18 years old. Somehow, that's impossible. LOL

Oh well, what have I done for my big day. LOL
Honestly, nothing~ hahahhaa. The 'great' birthday ever when you are sick. LOL

Like seriously?!? I can't believe that I'M SICK! LOL
However, thanks for the wishes buddies, especially the wishes that came from US. LOL
Thanks a lot dude! *hugs* That really meant a lot to me. :)

Well, my 21st, I can't just let it be like that. May be I'm going to present myself a hand phone for this year. wakakakakka.
As a memory which wake me up reminding me life ain't good, no pain no gain~

There come my wishes part~
My first wish, I would like to present it to my family members. Wish them all with a good health, stay safe and happy always. May all their dreams come true.
Second, I wished I could finish up my degree with flying colours and made my family proud of it. First honour degree would be my target. Sheryi~ GOGOGO!
Thirdly, I would like to present it to the world. May all of them in this world surrounding with happiness. No more wars while just left the only peace countries and the happy peoples. :) Children, women nor men. They have their rights for living, for speech, for freedom. What left to them is all happiness. PEACE!
God bless everyone :)

This year! Nothing much celebration though is my "big" day. LOL
Last Friday~ Kelvin and all of them did give me a so called "surprise" party~ but to be honest that ain't surprise. hahahha~ May be my sixth sense are just too strong. LOL
Too bad~ but still....At least,someone celebrated it with me even though my family not going to celebrate with me. LOL.
But still I wished I could celebrate my day with my family. This will be my last birthday in Malaysia. My last celebration which I could celebrate together with them.
Anyway, birthday ain't meant anything. Just bared with it. LOL
Life still goes on. HAHA

Is 7.20pm, MY BIRTHDAY is almost gone~ hahaha.
HAPPY 21st BIRTHDAY, SHERYI! MAY ALL YOUR DREAMS COME TRUE. :)

SHit~

Countdown...
2 more days...will be my 21st birthday.
Time passed really fast, 20 years...I been living in this world for the past 21 years.

Today, when I was with Alan at the Econsave....
Out of sudden, Malissa called me and asked me out just for Cheah Yee Hong's Birthday celebration.
HaHa. It was a surprised, I guess it had been some time we didn't actually meet up or what ever is it.
Birthday celebration...don't know why...there was some blue feeling in me.
It's sounds like, same goes to today the photo session with my classmates.
I felt a bit sour actually...my birthday...I guess except Yvonne...who was the one who actually still remember my birthday...who else will be if theyre is no reminded or what ever.. hahaha

Even my dad and mum don't remember that and how sad case was...they are not going to celebrate my 21st birthday. hahaha.
My 21st birthday....I don't know why...I don't care about my others birthday...but it was my 21st birthday...hahaha...
Somehow, they did ask me whether wanna a birthday party or not. Supposingly, it is a yes...but later my mum suggest what about we go some steak house and celebrate...I'm actually just fine with it...
I know, it's a messed and troublesome if to held a party just to celebrate my birthday...Plus, they no longer as young as last time. I'm just all fine, even with a cake with my family..I guess it will be my last birthday with them. After those years, I will be all by myself...
However, plan changed...it been postponed till this coming December.
What's the point of celebrating? It's sounds like just a family gathering, there no longer a thing which worth to celebrate. hahaha
I'm just feeling....haiz...
Is okay~ it been damn years that they did not celebrate with me...Sometimes, they don;t even remember my birthday. It should be all fine. What's the big deal.....

Feeling better right now...just forget about everything. Don't even think of it...just make it like last time....who cares about your birthday. Not like peoples must remember your birthday...Joke right? hahaha

Really can't imagine that i'm 21 years old and will be officially upgrade as an adult.
Kinda unwillingly, hahaha...I guess it's good that no one remember your birthday...at least you are forever young. LOL.

21st birthday...What am I suppose to make this memorable?? Present myself a watch? a phone? or a camera? hahahahahaha...sounds like I really need to work hard though. They ain't cheap stuff. LOL
My 21st birthday...LOL.

Beside this, don't know why...today was the first day that I don't feel like going for dodgeball training.
May be, it's really happen a lot of things until it ruined my mood for attending.
Interpreting. I am hoping, really hoping that the feeling that I owed wasn't right.
I really don't hope that Chong Inn is that kind of backstabbing person.
We have been a while. May be I don't know everything about him, but at least I knew him and he is the one that I can consider as a close friend.
Will he be the second fella just like Peter?
I'm crossing my fingers and hoping for it. I told myself he ain't that bad and he is not that kind of person.
I'm just wished to have fun. That's all what I want from the club, from the training.
Is that...that hard???
Sometimes, I do feel like asking the God, why is He taking away all my close friends and turned them into a beast.
Why???
I don't understand...Really don't understand.
I'm laughing...I guess...

#my Heart

I'm speechless right now. Totally speechless.
Even though I'm keeping distance, apparently...I'm still losing them as friend.
Friend forever?? As you said, always.
LOL. This is just a joke??
Friend...fine~
The more I care the worst I feel.
Anyway...I'm just found my self who was a noob and you are the one who gradually became a stranger to me.

Frankly speaking, you will never know how I feel right now.
No matter Sammy or you....
I guess, I made a wrong move?
I'm trying to help but end up locking myself into deep shit.
I'm just too stupid.
It's always like the more I care, the worst I get.
No pain, no gain no longer sounds logic in this situation.

"I don't care any more."
It's always sounds much more easier to say than action.

I'm having lots of things to be settle right now.
Doing part time while studying.
And yet, this Sem was a sem that really stressed me up a lot.
And now you guys treat me like that.
Am I that stupid? Where you guys can just throw away after using me?
Great one~
Nice job buddy.
Thank you. What have I done wrong?

Haiz~~
*pat pat. Everything is going to be so fine.
Yea...Everything going to be so fine.