女人，別敗在自己手裡♥ #ladies, do not lose yourself :)

1、你的衣服不用以量取勝，收起那些不合時宜的蕾絲、花邊或者娃娃衫，從今天起你得保證
      掛在衣櫃裡的每一件衣服都有不錯的質地、得體的款式和適合自己的顏色。

2、要對自己的外貌負責，別相信素面朝天才是美，不願用時間來裝扮自己的女孩，請不要對
      其她漂亮的女孩心生產生嫉妒或不滿。但臉上的粉不要厚到讓別人擔心你一笑會崩掉或掉     渣什麼的程度。

3、不斷充實自己的內涵，多看書，多學習。書架裡別只擺言情和網絡小說，你需要看點別
      的，社會、人文、政治、財經、時尚、家庭……花瓶易碎，紅顏易老，唯有你的內涵彌久
     歷新。

4、自信！自信！自信！即使站在穿香奈兒洋裝，挎著限量版LV包包的女人身邊也要抬頭挺
      胸，自信滿滿。沒錢時瞧不起自己的人，有錢了就會瞧不起別人。

5、不要讓一些人影響你的心情，這世上多臭不要臉的傻×都有，無視他們好了，別置氣，你
      非要愛生氣，那就活該被氣死！

6、人都要長大且成熟，大學畢業後不要再梳兩條小辮子，別總一開口就：“我們女孩
      子……”裝清純裝可愛比不清純不可愛本身更要命。

7、性感不是一種裝扮，而是一種氣質，露出半個屁股不是性感。

8、不要相信偶像劇，別總以為自己是灰姑娘——灰姑娘常有而王子不常有。可以看星座，但
      不要太相信，否則會吃虧。

9、不要遇到困難或不開心就想到哭，第一滴淚是珍珠，第二滴是水晶，第三滴是露水，第四
      滴就是自來水。萬一脆弱的不行了，請選好哭泣的對象，不要隨便藉肩膀和胸膛。

10、要有幾個死黨。但記住，不要和跟你說別人壞話的人交朋友。

11、是秘密就不要隨便跟別人說。也不要去探聽別人的隱私，不要在背後說他人是非，長舌
        婦比烏鴉嘴更討厭。

12、工作時要認真。有野心，偶爾做做工作狂沒什麼不好。

13、無論你單身，還是已嫁了個好男人，不要有依賴思想，要獨立。學會投資，學會理財，
        不要好吃懶做，自己喜的東西努力自己買，不打男人錢的主意，他給你花是他的事，這
        是你的驕傲。

14、一個人最大的悲哀就是不願意當自己，輸什麼都不輸氣質，丟什麼都不丟個性。

15、別宣揚你的戀情史，男孩越談越成熟，女孩卻越談越爛。

16、不要24小時都想著同一個人，如果發短信給你喜歡的人，他不回，請不要再發了。

17、記得你喜歡的人的生日，特別是家人。愛父母，爸媽永遠是你最重要的人。相信我，子
        欲養而親不待比失戀痛苦幾百萬倍。

18、平等公正的對待你和他的愛情，腳踩多隻船終會翻掉。

19、林黛玉無法生存，常常去運動，有時間去學瑜伽或者跆拳道，可以防身。

20、把看韓劇的時間用在自我保養上，做面膜，有條件就去泡溫泉，汗蒸，SPA。不要熬
        夜，有條件請午睡。偶爾喝些紅酒，能不抽煙就別抽煙——幾年後會讓你看上去比你的
        同齡朋友老好幾歲，雖然有的女人抽煙時很迷人。

21、任何場合，應該保持應有的涵養。能不和人爭吵，盡量別吵，憤怒之前心裏數到20再說
        話。

22、微笑不花錢，在不同場合展現出你的不同笑容。不要對衣著過時樣貌平平的人滿臉傲
        氣。

23、經常學習新事物，插花、茶道、繪畫、滑雪、潛水、烹飪……都可以，應該有自己的興
        趣並從中獲得快樂。

24、優秀的男人固然值得珍惜，如果是掛上已婚的標籤，看看然後離開，記住這不是你能消
        費的起的。

25、小氣的男人不能要，一買單就臉色突變，AA制好了，誰都不差錢！也別愛上太“懷才不
        遇”的男人，中國人太多，人才也不少。

26、不犯賤，對任何人。恨一個人不需要理由，就像愛和不愛一個人都不需要理由一樣，所
        以永遠不要為了一個不愛你的男人流眼淚，永遠不要問分手的男人“你為什麼不愛我”之
        類的話，恨他好了。

27、失戀時別用酒精麻醉自己，跑步吧，或者練練跆拳道、鋼管舞什麼的——健身房有的是
        帥哥。愛情不是最重要的事情，’有情飲水飽’是騙人的，很明顯。

28、別人對你好不是義務，知恩圖報。51%和49%是給別人和自己的黃金分割比例。

自個兒？？ #No L.M.A. please~

I always tell myself not to judge people by the book cover.
I really don't like your "everyone is the same"...
Honestly, it's hurt my feeling...

I thought your were different because you knew how it's feel...
But it's seem that...
I never thought off, not even once that, that particular phase will come out from your mouth.
Honestly, i'm kind of disappointed.

The moral of the story is..
Don't speak when your mood is ruined.
Words that came out from your mouth might hurt others as well.

I don't mind to be your listener.
I asked because I care...
I treated you as someone which much more than just being a stranger friend.
A friend that I appreciated.
Don't ever asked me to leave you alone.
I really hate to hear that.
Because when ever somebody tell me that, I found myself not been trusted as how I trusted you.

Friendship...
what's make friendship??
Aren't friendship not your fundamental??
When did you start to believe it??
It's just enough to have Cow and Darren to be in your best friend's list.
BFF.

ahhhhhh~ it's just so contradicting...
Great one~ you ruined my mood. :(

冰沙の記憶。當 “新歡” 遇見了 “舊愛” #the Snow。when miracles happened

我毕业了哦~~
他好像没有在我脑子里好一段时间了~ O(∩_∩)O哈哈~
遇见他时，好像没有了心跳加速的感觉。。感觉就像。。。很普通很普通的心跳。
但是，我还是希望他会幸福快乐。。心想事成。

今天，我只个儿去了夜市一趟。
回的途中~脑子里呈现了一段感想。

在这人海茫茫当中，就像白安的那首歌。。。
我是宇宙间的尘埃。。。
一个人的力量真的是微不足道。。。

人。。不会因为出生寒酸而可悲。
人。。不会因为生活辛酸而可悲。
人。。更不会因为身体残障而可悲。
人。。最可悲的是对于事物的冷漠。

你是否尝试过站在一段热闹的夜市，站在那原地不动。。。
看着人来人往，有的随你而去，有的随你而来。。
当你闭上眼睛，听见。。夜市里的吵闹声。。减价声。。
我发现自己真的无比的渺小，这世界的冷漠真的很可悲，显得有点说不出的可怜。
因为，当你这样做时，这世界给予的眼光不是关怀，更不是情切，而是你在干嘛？她是不是神经的？所谓好狗不挡路。

其实，这感想也得谢谢路边的失去左脚的乞丐。
当乞丐在另一端乞求人们的施舍时，人都会走向另一端，抱着一种心态：能免则免。

我并不觉得我是善良的，我是大方的，我是一个富有爱心的，其实，我也会像他人一样。。能免则免。
当我遇见他时，我也像平常的路人般，冷漠他。
但是。。。我被他的眼神吸引着了。
心里很纠结，我放慢了我的脚步，从口袋里掏了一零吉，给了他。
其实当时，第一句话划过我的脑子就是：他是不是骗子与你有何关系？虽说一零吉，如果是真的，多多少少也能帮助啊~给他吧~

一路来回，我总共遇见3为乞丐，但我只给了一位。。。因为另外那两位对我而言，他们是有能力工作的。所以我忽略了而另外两个。
但是。。。我感觉自己好像很坏，很矛盾，好像在推翻自己刹那间划过的想法。

就因为这样，我才感觉人的冷漠真的很可悲。。。

今天的感觉，有点像当 “新欢” 遇见了 “旧爱”。
意味着，当新概念遮盖了陈旧的思念。

冰沙の記憶· 四 #the snow·four

At last...my Chinese New Year ended and I was sick. Great one!
But...through this, I realized that my parents were the greatest peoples in the world. :)
My daddy gave his only lychee from the tree which planted at our garden, to me when I am studying. :)
and my lovely mumi prepared all this food for me to bring back to PJ. (^.^) and she helped me to cut those "ba gua" into smaller pieces and filled them in into a container so that it is easy for me to eat.

They are so lovely~ :) I 'm felt that i'm the luckiest girl in the world. :)
I LOVE YOU BOTH VERY VERY MUCH! :) muakkkksssss~
I will study hard and make you guys proud of me~ I promised! :)

Somehow, he is still "floating" in my mind.
I don't know why I found it hard to forget him.
I know we are impossible but the bond between us is difficult to break. :/
He will automatically "float" into my mind when I 'm having my day dream.
*xiu xiu xiu*
I don't want you, get out of my mind please!
If..it is possible~ I wish that I could put a no entry sign on my head. :/

冰沙の記憶· 叁 #the snow·three

Isn't it great when all those sadness... unhappy stuffs can be mop off just like when we are mopping the dirty floor...

 

冰沙の記憶·貳 #the snow·two

I'm really an idiot for the pass~
Now this made sense..
This is totally ridiculous~

I really found myself like a clown for the pass.
Why am I that stupid!
I'm an idiot!
I'm felt so awkward when Z told me that actually he knew everything and every single of our conversation.
I was like what!?!?
Obviously, this show how stupid am I!

I really feel like digging a hole and bury myself in it.

For the pass, I always thought that I know a lot things.
I have gone through a lot of....things that I actually thought that I am mature enough in my thinking.
Eventually, I am not!
I am not that ready yet to step into this society.
I am not that ready yet to step into this reality.
My God!

What the hell is going on!
hahaha~
I'm so funny~ :(

Out of sudden, I felt this world...really scary~
KL was a place that much more complicated that I thought.
Everyone is so faked!
Untrustable~

Today, I have my dinner with friends which one of them was him~
I actually wanted to look at him, directly...but I failed to do so..
I really wanted to know, what is actually in his mind and his heart.
I really wants to know, who is he?
He looks like a stranger to me right now.
A stranger that I thought I knew who was he but eventually, I know nothing about him~
I actually fell in love into a stranger??
Seriously..this is insane!!
Love is blind??
Is it an excuse, so that everyone can escaped from the topic of being an idiot?
This is ridiculous~ Seriously, it is!

Honestly, I really wanted to look at him and use my heart to feel...
To feel, who is he actually? what is his power to make me felt to him?
But I failed to do that~
I felt awkward~ I have done too many idiot stuffs eventually, I don't feel like facing it anymore.
Every time, every moment that flashed back what I had done, I felt like an idiot!
I asked myself, every time~ "why am I doing that kind of things? What am I thinking?"
Somehow, each time...the answer is still the same~ "I don't know"
Funny right?
I found myself like an idiot, like a crown...entertained him and hurt myself more~

I really hate myself right now~


Yesterday...he went for the dodgeball training...
and I found it so awkward~
You know~ The first thing which flew into my mind was~ "Why is he appeared in this court? Searching for another target?"
My God!
His reputation kind of ruining?
I meant, for me~

But I believed, time is everything~
What doesn't kill you make you stronger~
I guess~
hmmmm~ actually..I should be thankful~
Really thank you for everything that he had done!
Eventually, he taught me a lot of things which can't find in the book~
Thank you :)
You made me growth~
So that I'm no longer that naive~

Somehow~
Why? Why? Why?
Dear Diary...
Please tell me~ Why human being must be that fake??
Why must they be so dramatic?
I can't get it...
I really hate those~
Booooo~

However :)
Thank you Diary.
Thank you for being a good mate.
I feel...hmmmm~ feeling better~ hahaha
Honestly, dear Diary..you are the only one that I can speak the truth~
The only only one who I really can speak "loudly" without hurting anyone feeling~
Thank you for being such a good mate :)
*grateful* :)

冰沙の記憶·壹 #the snow

I guess~
I should give a try on this method.

Write down, state down what ever that I have done for the day including the moment that I thought of you.

Basically, today... I skipped the Contract class just because for a test that I am worried about. I skipped the class and hide inside the library. Funny joke~ Why am I that useless??
Such a coward! *ironically laugh*
When I was in the library doing my revision for Contract, I sound my ears with one of my favorite song, "Bitter Sweet" and I thought of you.
In that moment, I felt like an useless.
I felt so gloomy out of a sudden~ and feel like crying..

The second time was when I saw a friend..
Who named Geetha~ she was an Indian.
and what I found it interesting was..
She is exactly doing what ever things that I have done.
She is exactly on the path that I had been before.
She was fall to a guy named Patrick, but of cause..mine was not Patrick.
However, this was not the main point. The main point was, their relationship was like our relationship.
The only different was, they are Indian and we are Chinese.
Somehow, I hoped that yours was a happy ending as mine was...not a sad ending..hmmm~ kind of..not a good ending??
ahhhh~ screwed it! Whatever! 

I told Farah that, what ever that I had been go through.
That's why...
I am totally understand what was that feeling.
I am totally understand how Geetha felt about it.

Me, who was a freaking idiot told almost everything about myself to him which similar to things that Geetha had done right now.
It is totally like, she is walking on the path, my previous path that I had gone through.
So silly..
I guess he is laughing when I told him about myself. May be he will think that I'm that fake, who are trying to search for sympathy from him? Who knows.. Right?
Anyway~
I'm kind of agreed with the statement that Farah had made.
"Girls shouldn't make the first move because it always made girls look stupid and desperate."
True~ fair enough.
I'm the sample. That freaking idiot.
I felt like...not me...
When I was alone, things just flied over... memories just flashed over...
I felt like, I am an useless fella..
as what Chinese used to say:"窝囊"

Day by day, what can made me feel better was this quote:
"Sometimes, our "problem" seen to be as big as the shadows...but actually they are little."
As I always do...*pat my heart and take a deep breath*
tell myself that: everything is going to be so fine..Gambatteh!"

I named this post as 冰沙の記憶 #the snow
Just like snow...
You can't keep snow as it will melt.
Once it is melted, what lelf was the memories between you and the snow...
What was left was, the feeling between you and the snow...
You can't keep it, you can't see once winter is over.
Even though how desperate you are, it is over...
What left was the memories and the feeling between you and the snow, just like he and me.
I won't said that he cheated on me or he hurt my feeling.
Instead, I will consider that as I hurt myself as to be honest..he did not promise anything.
As I 'm the only freaking idiot who thought that everything is right.
Seriously~ I can even laugh at myself, how silly am I!

"Bitter sweet" was one of my favorite song as it was my memories..
Honestly, I'm thankful~
Instead of hate you, I prefer to say thank you.
Thank you for creating memories with me..
I'm silly..I know..but at least there are some memories that worthy.
I like the most was when we are skating on ice.
Even though, I don't really know how to skate, or don't even know how to skate..
but~ that was my first time of playing it after so many years of living in this earth which might be gone in one day.

At least~ when I was thankful~
I feel better even though I am an idiot~
I know I'm contradicting myself.
But this is how I felt...right now..
Honestly~ Gambatteh!
As I love to say, when Malaysia Boleh! I pun boleh!
It just a matter of time~
加油！ ↖(^ω^)↗