Saturday, February 18, 2012

夢想 #dream

Dare to Dream,
Dare to Fly,
Dare to be the ever chosen one to touch the Sky.... :)

Tuesday, February 7, 2012

掙扎 #the Struggle

"Mr or Mrs or Miss future~ where are you???? Enough of playing hide and seek.....Come out please..."
This was the phases that i always repeating~ Lame huh?!?
Though..I am still searching for it...
Choose the 1 and the half years that I have spent on my STPM or back to ZERO---> study the Foundation of Science...
May be lots of peoples will thought choosing back to zero was an insane decision...
Adult will always said:" huh?!? What?!? Honey, you are wasting your time...Choosing back to zero wasn't an good idea...no others way???"
My cousin which younger that me will said:" huh?!? Jie...isn't it wasting your 2 years time??"
My sister said:" Yi, just follow your feeling and let your dream be realistic...Remember the diamond?? Never give up on your dream...The 2 years don't means anything...just let it be part of your growing process...NO BIG DEAL~"

Yeah~ Honestly it was't a big deal..haha.
No matter how and what...I am not giving out my dream...
Don't let the fear strike you out from playing the game...
I love this Quote..
This was the quote which always told by the father to her daughter in the movie named "Cinderella Story".
Yeah~ Go Go GOOOOOOO!!!!!!!


Monday, February 6, 2012

我的心 #mY Heart!

Dear Diary,
Result is coming out on the 23 of Feb! My heart pumping frantically when I heard about this, you can even hear the "pip pop! pip pop!". I am worried, is freaking worried that I can't get a good result. I can't get what I wanted to and going to make my parent disappointed.
Somebody please!
Haiz~
I know, I know..there won't be someone here. As usual~

Today, while my sister is buying the Roti Canai...I thought about him again with the song's title "Live without You" which playing on the radio...
Actually...it shouldn't be any "problem" between me and him..May be it was just a sudden..Just a flash~
Yes! that is! That was the answer! **I think~ LOL

Good night~ peoples on the earth....

Thursday, February 2, 2012

友誼 #FriendShip

What do friendship means?
May be different peoples will have the different opinions.

But, for me..friendship don't means anything to me. That is because, human is COMPLICATED!
I don't trust the phase of "friendship forever". Somebody asked me:" Don't you feel lonely without friend?"
Honestly, I do. I means sometime, but..as i said, human is complicated..I am just defending myself from being hurt by others people..
The first time you been cheated, is their wronged.
The second, you are stupid.
The third time, you are totally a freaking idiot!!
PLEASE!! I don't want to be an idiot~ I hate to be an idiot as i always done it!
My Chinese friends always said: "你好骗耶~" OR "去玩雪薏吧~她最容易受骗的~"
My God! My first feeling :" 不会吧~又来~"
Of cause, this was not the only reason..When I was young, i been instilled--->we should not trust anyone..
LOL~ Mumi, i felt guilty..i did not listen to your advice..
But when time goes on, I sealed myself in a small box..I started to learn the phase--"we should not trust anyone"
I saw a lot of "blue storm", "black sky" along my Secondary life..i do experienced it..the feeling was awful..I hate that feeling.
Even, there is a reason when two friends is getting very close..I do saw this kind of condition during my Seconday life..that was so,so,so,so freaking! Stating onward, I am sobered.
But, i still hoping the phases of "friendship forever" do exist! Contradiction right? LOL

Wednesday, February 1, 2012

#the Grudges

Omg..grudges! Are you the one who hold on to them?
In my opinion most of the people used to do so. 
Somehow,grudges must feel satisfying in some way. If they didn’t, we might not be as likely to hold on to them for so long. Maybe we get some temporary satisfaction when acting in a passive-aggressive way toward the people we hold grudges against.

If so, that meager recompense we gain from treating someone badly or ostracizing them hardly begins to balance out all the negative effects of holding a grudge. If we are unable to let go of a grudge, we face time lost stewing over it, the anger that can embitter us in many ways for years, and the potential health problems that result from the anxiety, depression, increased heart rate, and elevated blood pressure that grudges can cause.Which means, hold on to grudges is not good.

Learning how to let go of a grudge will be demanding, but it can help restore a relationship if that’s your goal. However, reconciliation is not a requirement. Some people don’t deserve it; some grudges come out of conflicts repulsive enough to make you realize that you don't want to deal with that person any longer.

But when you learn to let go of a grudge will demand a new degree of willpower. It is one thing to allow your new attitude to change the course of your relationship, but truly leaving the grudge behind means never allowing it to contaminate you again.

For example, if someone asks you how so-and-so is doing, you have to resist the urge to recount the whole sordid tale just for the purpose of putting a little stain on their name. This is an urge which, in the recent past, you may have jumped on at every opportunity.

In order to cash out this grudge, you have to honor and respect your intentions of dropping it all behind you and not letting it infect your thoughts, feelings or actions. It’s easier said than done, but necessary nonetheless.