Monday, April 25, 2016

想念

要考试~ 考试过后,人生的转折点似乎也该开始了。

人的感觉真的很奇怪。
我们明明分手了,可是我好像开始想念了~
生活中,'他'的存在并没有少。不管是看过,听过,吃过,只要是有曾经,都会联想到他。
会想到,这好像是他会喜欢的。
会想到,这是他爱听的歌。
会想到,他的偶像也。。。
会想到,只要是与他有关系的,我们的曾经。。。

如果你问我,后悔吗?
没有~ 我很肯定,我们必须分手。
如果你问我,为什么?
我不知道。我只能说,我很自私。我想飞的更高。平淡,不是我想要的。
如果你问我,你爱他吗?
我不知道。我只能说,那答案好像动摇了。心中,还会有那一丝,想要知道他的近况。想要知道他过的还好吗?他,有遇到更好的吗?
如果你问我,这会不会是你对他的亏欠?
这段感情,我很内疚。


内疚感。。。
不曾少过



Friday, April 1, 2016

BYE~

There's no word to describe my feeling right now. I m glad that he accepted the fact that we broke up. However, I don't wished that he hoping for more hope that we will be together again. My feeling told me, we are impossible. OUR RELATIONSHIP won't be like the fairy tales, we have no happy and live forever after. I don't know whether it is a pro or con if I continue to keep in touch with him. Will it be affecting him, giving him hope if I changed our relationship from couple to best friend?
Anyway I am not God, I can't predict what happen next but, I will just follow my feeling. I am sorry if I given any hope, I just don't want to be that freaking mean.